Searching...

Your charm, your smile, that curve in your lips, that shine in your eyes

I wander from one to another, searching...for that something.. that's part of you

Wanting to recreate you in anonymous faces

And meaningless touches

Then with a startle, I remember;

The menace in those eyes; the deceit behind those smiles

And then suddenly I can't remember

What I had set out to search

You or Me; or the dream that was US!

The Ocean

You stand there admiring me
You stand there wondering
Whether to wet your feet in the waves that are me
You stand there wondering if I am as calm as I seem

Then you come closer, one step at a time
First with doubting movements
and then with sure confidence

You stand there waiting for me to come to you
I gently kiss your feet
I see you smile

The warmth of me
the tingling sense of the withdrawing sand beneath your feet
Then you bend down
more confident this time
to splash some water off me

When you do that, some drops land on your lips
You taste them
They are salty

And then you know
that this is no ordinary ocean
It's a vast barren land, filled with tears
The Ocean that's me!!

Choosing Me

Baby, I love you
But I must go
Baby, I am not walking away from you
Baby, I am walking away from the ugliness
From the heartache and the deceit
From the lies and this golden cage
Baby, I am not walking away from you,
I am walking towards peace of being,
Towards truth, space, freedom
Towards enchantment, mystery
Baby, I am not walking away from You,
I am walking towards ME!
Baby, I always chose you
But today I am choosing ME!

An Ode to What I was

I was never the weed that gave you a high
I was the roots that held you to the ground;

I was never the designer wear
I was the well worn, faded T-Shirt, familiar and comfortable;

I was never the party, never the disco
I was the later night evening chats, mindless yet soulful;

I was never the soaring heights, the skydive, the adrenaline rush,
Baby, I was the ROAD that led you home... 

To Do List

It is important to have a to do list.. a list that lets you prioritize, the list that you can turn to when you know there are many things pending but can't put your finger on. It is also a list that tells you how lazy you have been, how you have ignored all those important things for all this while. Hey! may be those things were not important after all. Cause, if they were, they wouldn't be pending for so long. So I have this to do list which I am going to make public because I need to tell myself that these are really, really important for me. And the reason I am making them public is tomorrow when I look at it see some of them pending or all of them pending I need to feel horrible about myself for having not done all those things that I publicly declared I would do.

So my list goes something like this:-
1................................I don't know... I need to revisit this

Reading "I am Ozzy"

I have never been a fan of rock songs.. for a very longtime I wasn't even capable of distinguishing rock songs from the pop songs. I had grown up listening to melody and bollywood songs. yeah!! thats right!!

Now the first time I was exposed to rock songs were when I met hubby dearest.. of course he was a friend at that point of time. He would not stop talking about Ozzy the greatest. And yes, he was shocked beyond his wits to know that I had not heard about Ozzy before. Well my tryst with Ozzy and rock songs started since I became friends with my hubby. I slowly got the hang of rock songs and metal bands. And I actually started enjoying them. Well! not all of them, but atleast most of them. 

Recently, I came across an autobiography of Ozzy Osbourne and I ordered it online with the intention of gifting it to hubby. After going through the first few pages, I got totally hooked on to it and now I can't bring myself to keep it down. Its one hell of a f%%@#% book I must say. What I like about it is, its honest, not at all polished and does not grind words. While I am really loving it and will let you know more about it when I am done with it.. Happy Reading to me..Muah!!

Dental Scares

There is something that I forgot to share with you guys!! and girls.... Finally, I made it to the Dentist's place....yes finally.........its a big deal for me (having never visited a Dentist before and having listened to all the gory stories from people who have been there before me)......... But I really am happy I did it...Well it wasn't that bad...in fact it went on pretty well. The doctor having realized my aversion for the Dentists in general made me feel comfortable and sane before he explained that I had nothing to worry about and all that I needed was a badly needed clean up. Now that I am done with scaling and have had all my tartar out I fee more confident about going to a dentist again..